Courtney LeBlanc
Poem in Which My Feelings Fuck Each Other into More Feelings
~after Noor Hindi
Read the 2am text / slide / your hand down / touch the edge of lace / the layer between / you and you / moan into your / mouth / watch / the mailbox for letters, for postcards, for flowers / from a friend / cry when you forget to change / the water / when the petals fall bruised to the floor / pull out / your thesaurus / find another word for want / clutch it between your teeth / your thighs / the slick wet of you / write it on your skin with a Sharpie / pretend it’s a tattoo / change / the definition to match the mood / ring on your finger. When your finger turns / green pretend / it’s from a lover, pretend / it’s a hickey, pretend you didn’t / throw the ring into the river, angry / it never / changed from black, never turned / the blue-green of love. Tell yourself / you don’t care / anyway. Wash your hands and read / your horoscope, the obituaries, the dictionary. / Learn / a new word for satisfied. / Fuck / yourself with your fingers until / the quaking in your thighs / hums / to the tune of yes.
Read the 2am text / slide / your hand down / touch the edge of lace / the layer between / you and you / moan into your / mouth / watch / the mailbox for letters, for postcards, for flowers / from a friend / cry when you forget to change / the water / when the petals fall bruised to the floor / pull out / your thesaurus / find another word for want / clutch it between your teeth / your thighs / the slick wet of you / write it on your skin with a Sharpie / pretend it’s a tattoo / change / the definition to match the mood / ring on your finger. When your finger turns / green pretend / it’s from a lover, pretend / it’s a hickey, pretend you didn’t / throw the ring into the river, angry / it never / changed from black, never turned / the blue-green of love. Tell yourself / you don’t care / anyway. Wash your hands and read / your horoscope, the obituaries, the dictionary. / Learn / a new word for satisfied. / Fuck / yourself with your fingers until / the quaking in your thighs / hums / to the tune of yes.
Biography
Courtney LeBlanc is the author of the full length collections Exquisite Bloody, Beating Heart (Riot in Your Throat) and Beautiful & Full of Monsters (Vegetarian Alcoholic Press). She is also the founder and editor-in-chief of Riot in Your Throat, an independent poetry press. She loves nail polish, tattoos, and a soy latte each morning. Read her publications on her blog: www.wordperv.com. Follow her on Twitter: @wordperv, and IG: @wordperv79.
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