Ellie Lamothe
alchemizing
I have been thinking of our silences their slow degradation of the self of the shame that used to still
and distill me of learning to cherish the bared teeth of intimacy the violence that takes root in us
renames our cells and calls us to bed
I have been thinking of the point at which we annihilate ourselves the point at which we become
accustomed to rest again
I have been thinking of the ambiguity in seasons the sun-struck skull of the earth enduring new
warmths reminders of holding space for complexities for trauma born in loving hands trauma
that cannot be unraveled by a swollen tongue or white-knuckled fist
I have been thinking of magnolia trees their magenta throats and soft ivory they will still bloom
when the bees die out when the coastal cities flood
I have been thinking of my healing of its warm honey hum and guttural scream how it grows
within its own fragilities of coming home to the pleasure of my body to my love as ritual of
recovering with intention desiring with intention adapting
and distill me of learning to cherish the bared teeth of intimacy the violence that takes root in us
renames our cells and calls us to bed
I have been thinking of the point at which we annihilate ourselves the point at which we become
accustomed to rest again
I have been thinking of the ambiguity in seasons the sun-struck skull of the earth enduring new
warmths reminders of holding space for complexities for trauma born in loving hands trauma
that cannot be unraveled by a swollen tongue or white-knuckled fist
I have been thinking of magnolia trees their magenta throats and soft ivory they will still bloom
when the bees die out when the coastal cities flood
I have been thinking of my healing of its warm honey hum and guttural scream how it grows
within its own fragilities of coming home to the pleasure of my body to my love as ritual of
recovering with intention desiring with intention adapting
Biography
Ellie Lamothe is a Sociology student, activist, and poet living in K’jipuktuk (Halifax, NS). She's passionate about feminism and collective healing, and is the founder of Laurels & Bells Literary Journal. Her work has appeared in Glass: A Journal of Poetry (Poets Resist) and is forthcoming in Riza Press and Constellations: A Journal of Poetry and Fiction. You can follow her on Instagram @ellielamothe and Twitter @laurelsandbells.
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